Sunday, June 12, 2011
At the beginning of this week my ankle was still bothering me so i continued to take my workouts to the pool. By the end of the week it was all good. The recovery time was shorter this time round because i didn't wait until i was in severe pain like i have in the past to rest.
this next week in a half i know i have to concentrate real hard on nutrition considering i will be celebrating often. i need to put the knowledge that i have learned into action. because at the end of this week and next week i don't want to come back with gaining weight. I'm better than that. Just because i have a lot of fun things planned doesn't mean that my nutrition needs to turn into crap.
Friday, June 3, 2011
well it has been great not having to recover from any injuries lately. However that changed last weekend. I ended up doing something to my ankle. All I know is that it hurts and is a little swollen but it's starting to feel better.
In the past when I have had an injury I would keeping doing my same exercise routine until I couldn't handle the pain anymore. Then I would finally throttle back and see if I needed to have it looked at. Depending on the situation. However, this time I actually listened to my body and stopped and found an alternative exercise solution. So I started swimming laps at the pool.
I think this is the first time in awhile to where I didn't use an EXCUSE to get out of working out:) I figured I could dwell on the fact that I shouldn't do the workouts that I want to do. Or I could just find an alternative and do that. So I went to the pool at the gym.
With that said I had a great 1st week of weight watchers combined with Body By Vi shakes. I lost 5 pounds. I know weigh 262 pounds.
What worked this week was tracking and when I wanted something that wasn't that nutritional I gave it a lot more thought. Do I really want to waste my points on this when I could have this for less points and it will be better nutritionally for me. An example that i got in the habbit of lately. Icecream. so I would go to cold stone creamery get a medium peanutbutter perfection. holly crap. Then I started weight watchers and got a dining out book and looked it up. Well I found out that a medium chocolate cake batter is 23 points without the extra crap. I can have 40 points. so there you go lesson learned if you want icecream get the personal blue bunny ones and if i remember right they are 5 points.
Now that I had a great first week it's time to move forward and start this week like it was my first and I haven't lost any weight.
Friday, May 27, 2011
When you hurt enough you will be ready to except you need to change what is going wrong. I have been told that plenty of times lately but never thought much about what that meant until Thursday May 26Th, 2011. I want my 100 pounds lost back. I will get it back to. That's all I will say for now.
In my current situation it would be my weight loss up and down journey. Lately however weight gain.
When I first started changing my nutrition and exercise routines August 2008 I started weight watchers and used my gym membership.
I remember while working out I would be walking around with my big and bulky portable CD player. Wishing this whole time I would have an i pod. As time went on I kept complaining to everyone I don't care about cost I am buying an i pod. I was told no you don't need that right now. You have other things to be worrying about. So needless to say I didn't go out and buy one. shocking I know.March 2009, I was working one Sunday morning at Hollywood video and before the store opened my family came and surprised me. At that time I was close to losing my first 100 pounds. Well they went together and got me a hot pink i pod shuffle and had it engraved. (100 AND BEYOND! WAY TO GO BECKY). I remember that moment all the time of how excited I was. To A) reach 100 pounds lost. B) get an i pod.
Since then I have kept that 100 pounds off. I have dropped more here and there but over time i gained it back. Over time i ended up quitting weight watchers. Since I knew the program I thought I would be OK to stop going.
Over the past 3 to 4 months i became depressed for whatever reasons And started gaining weight again. But I'm still in denial at this time of what I am doing. I just keep thinking tomorrow I will have a better nutritional day. Well tomorrow comes and goes. I didn't change anything. A week passes by its time to weigh again. I have gained. The circle starts again.
I am at that point that I no longer have lost 100 pounds. I have gained 13 pounds just recently. For now I have given my i pod to a coworker that I trust at the dental office to hold on to it until I reach that 100 pound mark. I know it sounds strange to do that. But I felt that it was necessary to do at this time.
I asked Mike Wednesday May 25,2011 that afternoon sometime when I'm at the gym will you help me LIFT 100 pounds? He asked LIFT or LOSE 100 pounds? I said LIFT. Since i had started gaining weight again. I wanted to see what it was like lifting and walking with that extra 100 pounds on me. But, Then after he asked that question it got me thinking more. I NEED TO CHANGE WHAT I AM DOING NUTRITIONALLY. ITS NOT WORKING. and i also need to lose more weight. Little did Mike know what he was asking would get me on this mission. Instead of waiting until next week when I get to the gym. When I was working Friday night at Scheels i decided to go ahead and lift 90 pounds. Because that was the heaviest weight I could find at that time to lift. I was amazed how heavy that actually felt. And just think that is what I used to be walking around with daily with no choice.
Thursday May 26, 2011 during lunch I decided to go online and see when there was weight watchers meetings. I found a time that worked out perfect. Next thing I know I was walking through those doors once again. I am ready to make the change which is well over needed. I weighed in at 267 pounds. That is unacceptable Next week needs to be a loss.
After my Weight Watcher meeting I proceeded to go to my gamblers anonymous group meeting. There is this Blue little book that is called A DAY AT A TIME. We always have someone in the group read the reading of the day aloud. Me personally I randomly read it from day to day. This reading got personal to me because now I am going back to weight watchers. The reading was all about asking for help. Here it goes.
REFLECTION OF THE DAY MAY 26Th
I know today I will not have to proceed on my own. I've learned that its safer, more sensible and surer to move forward with friends who are going in the same direction as I. None should feel shame for asking for help, since we all help each other. Its no more a sign of weakness to use help in recovering from an addiction than it is to use a crutch if I have a broken leg. To those who need it, and to those who see its use fullness, a crutch is a beautiful thing.
DO I SOMETIMES STILL REFUSE TO ACCEPT OBTAINED ASSISTANCE?
TODAY I PRAY
God make me see that it is not a sign of weakness to ask for help, that the camaraderie of the group is what makes it work for each of us.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Help is as near my telephone, computer, or meeting
I will post an update of a loss or gain next weekend. I don't weight in until Thursday night. Thanks again for your support. Have a great night.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
I will say this though I have finally gotten to the point to where I don't have any heel pain and minimal knee pain. It is a wonderful feeling. I have noticed lately that at my part time job at Scheels running around trying to get people to sign up for the credit card the i am starting to get my visa sales back up. I think this is due to I am actually feeling good and not in pain. Thank goodness and its about time.
This past week i saw a 5 pound loss on the scale. I now weigh 253 pounds. really hoping to continue to see the scale going down. looking forward to see what the scale will say next Wednesday.
I think I am up to having about 10 pops in the past 13 weeks.
Hope you all had a great Easter and week.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
i am still not satisfied with why i have said in the past why i havent seen much progress over the past year. saturday night i talked to a good friend of mine about things that i have been going through. it was at that time i found out exactly why i havent seen much progress. i began to settle for the 100 pound loss and get to comfortable with my self since i had my divorice, gambling and shopping issues under control.
i figured i have done enough, and i would be happy with maintaining my current weight. even though i really still wanted and want to beable to lose more. once i figured this out i have noticed that i have so much more determination and energy. so this past monday was the restart of bettering my nutrition and getting back on track with my workouts. nutrtition wise i have focused on a variety of things 1)not eating through a window 2) planning my meals out 3)counting my calories 4) when i have the munchies i have been drinking water. i have also gone 10 weeks with having about 9 pops. the last couple times when i have had one i have actually gotten a headache from it.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
did have some issues going on though.
last weekend i ended up going to my state dental meeting. one of the topics i listened to was the Role of Nutrition and cancer.
Here is the summary of that.
-eat a variety of vegetables and fruits everyday (rainbow of colors)
-emphasize fish, poultry and non animal sources of protein
-limit red meat to 18 ounces per week, avoid processed meats
-limit salt in the diet
-limit alcohol consumption
-limit saturated fats
-limit foods high in calories, low in fiber, and high in fat
-maintain a healthy body weight and get regular exercise
-stay up to date on cancer screenings for early detection
-get 7 to 8 hours of sleep every night
#2-be grateful, be hopeful, stay connected and laugh often
#1-QUIT EATING THROUGH A WINDOW. for the most part not many healthy foods are served through windows.
this week i did end up losing 2 pounds. I now weigh 255 pounds. i am liking how the numbers are finally going down down.
i am finally able to workout again after having the gout in my big toe.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
this past week i did end up losing 1 pound. i now weigh 257.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Since August 2008 I have had my share of injuries. I have broke my pinkie finger, knee issues,heel spur and plantar fascists, and now a broken big toe.
I was asked recently with all these different injuries I have had is it worth it? My answer is HECK YES. You may be asking WHY? Do I want to continue to live my life unhappy with no energy and extremely overweight? Or do I want to live my life Happy and full of energy and weigh less?
I have chosen to improve my life and focus on me by trying to lose weight. No matter what hurdles come up in life. I have so much more energy, drive, and will power than I used to.
The way I see it injuries are going to happen throughout life. The best thing I have learned is that when you get injured you need to rest and recover. Then when you start back up exercising go slow to see what your body can handle. so you don't reinjur yourself.
When you are injured you need to focus real hard on your nutrition. Especially since you aren't buring as many calories throughout the day that your body is used to burinng. If you snack on the crap you will feel like more crap than you already do. It's not worth it.
The next phase of boot camp is starting next week. However, I will not be going this phase Joe and travis think it would be best for me to sit out on this next phase and continue to heal my toe. As much as I know I will miss going they are right. I need to beable to go at 100%. And I know right now im not. so I am hoping to be good to go the next phase.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
last march i was forced to find a new part time job because Hollywood video was closing. I had put plenty of applications out. I then got a call back from scheels all sports. I was then hired to promote their visa credit card. I thought that would be the perfect position for me. considering my past credit problems. A year later i am still succeeding at getting my visa sales. some months are harder than others yes but that is all in the game. each month inset a goal of how many i want to reach then i break it down to a more manageable weekly number of visas to process. Last year that i can remember there was only 1 month (February 20110) that i didn't have the top sales. This year i want to average about 46 applications a month.
with the extra money i earn at scheels i spend it wisely on either boot camp or personal training.
Sunday was my 6Th month mark without having pop for the most part.just recently i did have one at a hockey game. i will say that i didn't enjoy it as much as i used to. even though it was a diet pop it still tasted to syrupy.
i am about to finish my phase of boot camp. his phase i was able to lose a total of 5pounds. i started this phase weighing 263 pounds and now i am down to weighing 258 pounds. i am back on the losing track thank goodness. since i figured last phase i had gained a lot. i think maybe 13 pounds. i gained because i lost focus, my mind got off track, i didn't care but i did. i only went to the first week of camp then i quit because if you remember i had the bronchitis. and that it where i lost it. i am upset that i let this happen. but i have moved on my boot camp guys Joe and Travis and Mike my trainer are here to help me get things under control i just need to speak up. i have started emailing my nutrition to Joe again. you know that really makes you think about what you are going to eat for the most part before you eat it.
Monday, March 7, 2011
i have realized that the forged fit camp in omaha, nebraska is a great boot camp to be involved in. Joe and travis are very helpful whether it be with nutrition, workouts, support. i love the variety of the workouts. some of the exercises are the battleing ropes, joging in the pit, trying to jump over the balance beams,resistant band exercises, kettle bell exercises, different animal exercises,trying to improve my burpees,almost forgot the turkish get ups. what i miss since i am at a gymnastics place instead of their gym forged athlete.is the prowler and running with tires. with the variety of interrvals the workouts we do you never know from day to day what they are going to surprise us with. for examples 20/10, 30/30,45/10, 50/10 , or the ladder 15, 30, 45, 60,minute break 60, 45, 30, 15
the first week i was down 2 pounds. it was nice to see that.
with my workouts i have also been more consistant with drinking my body by vi shakes. i have been adding the powder mix to almond milk and blending it up alot of berries. this week it has been strawberries, and blackberries. when i first started making the shakes i would just have it plain. i have learned with time how much better they are with fruit blended in them. and my first thought was i dont have time to make the shake but in reallity it takes no time at all.
it has now been a month that i havn't had any pop. at first i didnt think i would be able to stop drinking the pop. i dont really miss it like i thought i would.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
I am still doing my bootcamp 4 times a week foe 3 weeks. With 1 week off at the end to rest. Then i have 1 personal training session a week on my off day of bootcamp. I do for the most part take the weekends off from exercisng. But with my part time job on the weekends i average walking for the whole weekend about 20 to 23 miles.
I know I still need to impove on this aspect. I am still doing the body by vi shakes.
I am no longer weating the boot for my heel pain now for about 4 weeks. thank goodness. As for my knee it does bother me from time to time. I know when I have done to much. Then i just rest for a couple of days then Im good to go. I know my knee will continute to heal with time and with more and more weight I end up losing will help to.
I have also been thinking about my progress over the past year with one of my trainers. He told me to ask myself some basic but vital questions. If you are struggling with anything you too can ask yourself these same questions. Maybe you can learn something about yourself while doing this also.
1)Why do you want to lose weight?
2)why have you stayed so long in the same spot you are in today?
3)what is holding you back?
HERE IS MY ANSWERS TO THOSE SAME QUESTIONS
why do i want to lose weight? to live a healthier life style. when i am older i dont want to be dependant on meds. so far i have been lucky. i have only had to take blood pressure meds off and on. right now i am good without them. to live a happier life style. meaning i am already happy with what i have accomplished but want to see that grow when i get closer and closer to my ultimate goal. that will mean a big reward that i want to happen sometime next year medically. a necessary surgery.
why have i stayed at this level for a year? i didnt stay focused enough on my nutrtion. like i did with my workouts. when i would have a week i gained weight i would dwell to much on the gain instead of thinking what do i need to change from last week to make this next week progressive. i quit writing my daily nutrtion down. starting tomorrow i am going to start this back up. it does make me pay closer attention to my nutrtion. because seeing the bad nutrtion written on the paper i am able to see what needs to improve next week. versus not writting it down and forgetting what you actually ate today. i also know taking the measurements monthly does help. which i havent been doing that every month. to continuously updating my weightloss blog to hold me more accountable for my up and downs. everybody has good weeks and bad weeks.
what is holding me back? wanting to push myself full strength but not being able to because of either pain in my knee or heel. or when it is feeling better reinjuring it. but i also am realizing that i need to go as hard as i can when not in pain. and when there is pain present throttle back a little bit. also when i do lose the excess weight i will be better off to. other than that there isnt really anything holding me back. i just got lazy and didn't pay attention. I do have fear in the back of my mind of what to expect when I reach my weightloss goal.
With being asked those questions it was perfect timing. why do I say that it was the begining of a new phase of bootcamp. so I figured this will be my phase to shine. and see progress. I did start week 1 off good. Week 2 didnt start off like i would have wanted it to. I am currently sick with broncitis so needless to say I have quit exercising. I pretty much right now don't have much extra energy also I am coughing a lot. I am still paying attention to my nutrtion though.
So this week besides working I have been sleeping whenever possible and drinking plenty of water. even more water than I would normally do throughout my day. It almost feels like I cant drink enough. Im always thirsty.
in a couple of weeks I will start back up with the bootcamp. since I havent gone this week I am noticing how much I really do miss the workouts that we do.
weight lose wise for the week I cant give you that information right now since I havent been to the gym but next week I will let you know.
Dont think any goal is impossible to reach. some might be harder to reach yes, but you will reach it one day. Keep working hard everyday to get you closer and closer.
I also know that I have a lot of support from everyone and I appreciate it. I know you all are not giving up on me. And I definately am not giving up.I want to lose 80 pounds. I will get this done this year.